Although sometimes my life can be quite hectic and ever changing, it is a blessing for me to both serve the Lord in ministry AND at the same time, have a “normal” job in the world. This is the case of all of us, being in the world but not of it. For me, it keeps me grounded in connecting my spiritual faith and the Gospel message to many who would never step foot into a church.
That being said, a few nights ago while on business in Germany with clients from the U.K., I found myself at a dinner table with 6 others and began to question myself; “Is it worth it? Is it really worth it to sometimes waste my time on earth speaking about pointless things in contrast to using my time speaking about eternal hope?” It was one of those seemingly pointless conversations with work colleagues speaking about pointless things like business in general, world headlines, making money, etc, etc. Then a couple of pointed questions were asked of me. Questions about why I moved my family to Switzerland and what is important in life. My heart was screaming out that my purpose in life (in or out of Swissland) is about Jesus Christ and definitely not about business and money. So my heart screams this, but my head was more rational because sitting next to me was a Pakastani British colleague who is quite important in the next months in business. Furthermore, we have already had a great start in our relationship the past couple of months and I didn’t want to offend him in a short blurt of my faith in Jesus, when I can show the love of Christ in the next months. I was thinking that when the time is right, I would be able to better dialog in love, about God and Allah. (He had previously shared with me a couple months ago about a very difficult period in his life of a failed marriage that was pre arranged by his parents and other parents of like culture and Muslim faith so I knew at least something about his background.) It was a quick decision of holding back what was truly on my heart and using rationally wording in order to share for the Lord in the longer run. So I gave some half truth answer about my moving my family to Switzerland was embracing both cultures of my 12 year long multi cultural marriage. Furthermore, the job I found after arriving has been a dream job and a wonderful opportunity. (Of course, this IS true and my company was buying the dinner!) Going to bed later that night, I felt a bit “defeated”. Should I have shared my heart? Did I quench the Holy Spirit’s leading in a potential conversation? Of course, I always miss my family while travelling, so it was just one of those nights………
I’ll keep it short, but the next night I find myself in the spa of the hotel in the sauna with my Pakistani British colleague. Keep in mind, this is a mid thirties man who was born and raised in the U.K., speaking proper Queen’s English, but at the same time, from a Pakistani Muslim home, similar to the profile we’ve been seeing lately on the news. At one point I was finally bold enough to share that although we come from very different backgrounds, my faith in God is more important than what this world has to offer. To my amazing surprise this man began to tell me about his faith too, which is in the Lord Jesus Christ! My heart jumped and for the nearly too hours we shared about how the Lord is real in both of our lives! His story of coming to know Jesus was truly divine! The next morning over breakfast, the sharing continued and I can honestly say, God is absolutely real! The way He reveals Himself and gives His grace to His creation is “a very beautiful thing”!
Sorry the writing is a bit long this week, but I think that for most of us, we can relate that while living in the real world, it can be intimidating to share what’s really on our hearts. As the Lord leads, be comforted that He will back up your words and actions of faith in a very real way! Below, the Lord states in much better than me in the book of 1 John:
1 John 4:4-12
You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. They are from the world and therefore speak from the viewpoint of the world, and the world listens to them. We are from God, and whoever knows God listens to us; but whoever is not from God does not listen to us. This is how we recognize the Spirit of truth and the spirit of falsehood.
Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.
In His grip and grace,